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I'm just articulating...

Nov. 30th, 2012 | 12:39 am
location: home sweet loving home
mood: sadsad
music: none

I've spent the days super busy. Regardless of my fatigue. I keep going. I don't stop. Every time I stop the thoughts come flooding back. Why? I'm sure the mental torture is self inflicted on my end. I can speak on that because it very much is. I miss her still and I have to let her go. I have to release her from my lovely heart hope --- and wish her well. I don't want to. She means so much to me and she doesn't even know it. I feel bad for having her mean that much to me. It's pointless really. If the meaning is only expressed one way -- then it's only one way alive in the heart department.

My eyes still tear up. I've been dreaming of her more and more. Some weeks the dreams die down and other weeks... they are non-stop. I have a hard time accepting that dreams are just vast wastes of time... I know that they are meant for so much more.

Dear Eeks,

I'm always going to miss you and it's simply because my heart still looks for you in a crowd. At night I still feel your arms around me. I'm completely torn and I apologize for not dealing with it correctly, but the alternate way of dealing with this particular situation ... would've hurt more. You know that. Your strength will get you through. Your cupid will help you sleep. xoxo

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Har har ....

Nov. 6th, 2012 | 05:48 pm
location: home
mood: blahblah
music: Seven Devils - Florence + the Machine

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Love is a maze and life is a riddle
I'm so scared, but I don't show it!

This song that is on is called: The Show by Lenka!
Lovely singer... nice song and cute sentiment!
Not much to say now, but that doesn't mean things won't happen lol

Much huggles and Rawr's!!!! *~*~* take care! *~*~*~*

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Meaning of life

May. 25th, 2012 | 12:33 am

You take the good with the bad and you take the bad with whiskey

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It's only fair

May. 23rd, 2012 | 08:21 pm

Life isn't agreeing with me lately. I've got to stand up for myself and I've got to speak up.

I'm here. I've chosen to be here.

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Update on my secretive code talk.

Jun. 3rd, 2011 | 06:09 pm
location: "workin" @ work lol
mood: happyhappy
music: none. heart beats only

Last Sunday, there were drinks involved.
Good night was had by one and all.
The only thing that changed is me.
I changed so very unexpectedly
My "friends" came out of this wood work
I could probably now write a fucking book
I saw them in a brand new light
They sure didn't put up a fight
I keep going
no matter what
I'm not phased my judging
don't give a fuck
I went with what I truly felt
I recognized it; astonished myself
I stand before the world and speak
"if you're perfect then please judge me"
I listen up for a reply
,but nobody even dares to try
I think I may have just hit a nerve
too little too late - successful hurt
I reach up for that one person
that one person that is my zen
She takes me on this ride, you see
I enjoy it
so much
because she loves me!

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Today --- wednesday --- I'm tired

Mar. 16th, 2011 | 05:27 pm
location: @ work
mood: draineddrained
music: none

My job has been offering 200% over time pay out .... since they are moving to ATL at the end of the year. I made sure to pick up as much OT as possible. So much OT --- that I only have 4 days off this month lol

I'll sleep in April lol
If my job is still doing this in April --- then I shall sleep in May. LOL! =)

I miss my off days and I miss my sleep, but I have to make sure that I get paid LOL I have to maintain my money flow lol =)

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Oktoberfest 2009!

Oct. 11th, 2009 | 05:15 pm
location: WORK
mood: creativecreative
music: Mary Tyler Moore song stuck in my head... LOL

Here is the breakdown:

I left Houston (IAH) on Sunday, and arrived into Amsterdam (AMS) on Monday afternoon. I got to AMS and flew from there to Munich (MUC) where the Oktoberfest festival was going on! As I first arrived there I asked some locals to help me get to my hostel. I literally walked across this bridge, only to get directions to walk all the f**k way back. Horrible on the feet! I arrived to the hostel and they checked me in! It was a nice hostel on the corner of two meeting streets so.... the traffic was minimal at night and durning the day!

I stayed in and slept that night that I got there, but Tuesday, I took on Oktoberfest! I went all by my lonesome and took pictures of MUC all over the place ((still pending on being posted due to busy work/school schedule)) and I took pictures all over Oktoberfest as well! The people there were really nice and un-sober... LOL! There was beer everywhere and food all over the place.... it was amazing! There were tents up and carnival rides, and cotton candy!!! LOL!!! My room mates at the hostel arrived absolutely wrecked that night, it was priceless!!!

Wednesday I had to start making my way back to AMS due to the fact that my flight left out of there at 10 in the morning on Thursday, and I didn't want to get up early as balls on that day. Good thing too... because when I started to make my way back to the MUC airport I took the train in the wrong direction, KARMA, I didn't buy a ticket on the train. I figured, how the fuck would they know, and you know KARMA reminded me she is always watching my ass! I ended up spending the night at the AMS airport --- which was freezing as balls --- but I arrived safely home and I went directly to the shower!

My brother had informed me that I didn't smell that great and I made sure to inform him that I was on a flight for 10 hours coming back from AMS!

Oh, yeah!!! I only took some tiny wedge heels with me on my trip so I returned with blisters on my feet, not too bad, but bad enough to make me walk slow.

I'm ok now!!! I've been on a high heel stike since I returned......... currently wearing my black with white stripes adidas! ♥ these shoes!!!

Had a blast, had time to myself, had friends at the hostel, had wished I stayed there!!!!

Miss you my lovely hippie! Take care! GREETINGS FOR ALL!!!!!

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Something in the works

Aug. 10th, 2009 | 04:45 pm
location: workyworkwerk
mood: creativecreative
music: none

You’ve broken my heart, for the last time.

I’ll make sure to reflect …. All night long…

You had me here to stay, but you chose her anyway

That last visual is where it stays.


With or without you, I told you I’d make it

So here I am for today… far away…

So hot I could die, you fill me inside

I’ve got to make you, pay attention.


Miss the simple stares from across the room

Glad to know you let out that other side of you

Allow him to take the reins, in the end you’re still one in the same


He’ll keep me company and he is my reason

to be free, I can’t control this feeling

anymore; I’m more than halfway out the door

That passion that I deserve is what his music in me churns.

Hello my music man

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My live journal is on the FRITZ!!!

Jun. 30th, 2009 | 11:32 pm
location: work
mood: blahblah
music: none

The home page is in .... plain font. No html script at all....

Very strange.

I've got nothing to share, not today, not yet..............

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Nov. 27th, 2008 | 08:54 pm
location: WORK!
mood: blahblah
music: NONE



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